When we dont click.

/Looks at calendar/
Did I even realise? Its 6 December 2010 already, and I've not flipped my calendar. Its still on that November month. BB's month passed, and I've not made good use of it. Needless to say, finding a proper and reliable job. tried out the job a waitress; it can really kill. ten plus hours of standing, I've hurt my muscles. Perhaps my senses too, I've been too abnormal since then. I've decided to quit, even guys classmates of mine can't tolerate the tedious job, so can't I. I'm just a weakling who falls sick easily and nobody cares.

Its true, nobody cares.
Its fine for me alright, at least I'm still able to live normally like any other, spazz and indulge in my own fandoms. Contented much.

/Countdown/
So its finally finalized.
1. 6 days to Maknae Seungri's Birthday.
2. 9 days to the release of GTOP's High High mv and Ohyeah.
3. 18 days to the full release of GTOP's album. / Christmas Eve.
4. 19 days to Christmas.
5. 28 days to the release of Maknae Seungri's digital single.
6. 56 days to BIGBANG's COMEBACK.
& finally; 7. 68 days to my birthday.

I guess these are all; if my calculations are accurate. Imma gonna get ready and save, and in between these months, there'll be a day of O level's results release which I don't even know when. O.O /failure much. failure for life/

/Wakes up everyday with something in mind/(?)
--> Get a job asap.
--> Needs to save up loads for kpop, blackberry and christmas.
--> Don't wanna stay at home to face mummy.
--> Wanna finish all the dramas and shows I've been tempted and wanting to finish.
--> I wanna prove you wrong.

Which of these are fulfilled? None. Yay, just continue thinking Huiyi; and nothing can be accomplished you fool. /need to really wake up/

I will. I try. I tolerate. I try to do my best. But you'll never appreciate, so what's the use?

To you guys:
Perhaps you might never ever see this, /since this blog has been dead for months/ I just wish to rant it out. You guys may be my long-known friends, we trusted each other, helped each other, looked out for each other, fooled together, etc.

Upon all these happenings, some incidents can and could be avoided, but you guys just resulted to it. Every single time. Its always the same sarcasm, the same words, discrimination etc. I'm sick of it, seriously. I am petty, but its you who forced it out. Yes its childish and immature, but have you ever spent time reminiscing about the past of why it all happened? Perhaps you should. Its not whose fault, or if anybody's at fault.

Its only that you don't udnerstamd me well enough despite all those years together. All I have for you is disappointment and lose in trust. Apologies exist you know that?

Its up to you to determine the result. Everything happens for a reason; are you ready to bear the consequences?