To chin ling and sihui:
i've actually exploded.
Really,after such a long time,bearing it is quite a torture. Dont even understand why i actually did that. I've actually regretted. Regretted making things so dry and as if we were strangers.
Actually,i had my tough side. You both have actually neglacting me in most of the time. Take for example,you both would always have ur own conversation while i'm left behind. Or ur topic of ur conversation is what i cant blend in. And you know when you two are on the same side and zhen dui me,it really hurts? Although sometimes i may do that to you both,i dont understand if you all feel the hurt. dont understand we we've become like this,but mayb i really cant really get into the world of you both. And,being in a class without terrible. All i can do is just to be independent. Afterall,in this triangle,i do really left out. Mayb i could try to get into the topic,but time is needed. And i'm sure i cant be what like Kenglin is. Bear with it and be treated like strangers from us. Sometimes,i dont think things are that bad,but sometimes,it is. I dont have my stand. And i think even though she's gonna somehow leave this clique,we wont last long. Mayb you both can,but being at the dangerous and steepest side of this triangle,its way much difficult for me. I'm really apologetic for what happened ytd. Really didnt mean for it to happen.
Though i cant expect cl to enjoy ytd,but i hope you are happy with the present. Afterall, i just wanna know my stand in this clique.


Still, happy birthday, Huiting!