Kamenashi
Yamashita
Yamada Ryosuke
Hey say jump!
After ages, here I am again.
It has been long, since graduation and the start of a new studying process, everything began just too unexpectedly. The first year ended, the freshmen year ended, embarking on my second year of studies any time soon. To be honest, with this course im studying, i cant see my future, or should i say, i have no plans for my future?
Blindly following the society, following what i should, the expectations which are growing on me, all i knew was that i had to study and soar my future. But is this what I really want? I've no answers to the question. Never. I've never ever planned what I want in future, its nothing but a hole.
Here I am, wasting my youth following the majority, aimless yes, but probably future has it say for me. Till then, i've nothing to grudge but trying to cherish what i own now.
2012 started, unexpectedly.
I had no anticipation for it, no desire for its beginning nor any goals I wanna achieve by the year. Pathetic is probably the exact word to describe me now.
Ditching all negative issues, 2011 had been great, meeting people, understanding people, trusting and abused trust, fangirling, meeting people whom ive always dreamed of, its amazing.
Beyond words explanation.
This year would be as equally awesome too, it will be.
Se7en greeted me on my birthday again with a direct mention and not a reply(!!!), that kind sweet man no one would ever hate. With his blessings, i know my year will continue well no matter what.
For now, besides focusing on my studies, all i have to focus is just my family, friends and most importantly, fangirling.
I would never imagine life without fangirling. I would not have stepped this far without fangirling. Seriously.
Without the anticipation in life to witness them, to hear them live, to experience the fun of life, being sucha pessimist in life, id never have stepped till today.
Bigbang and TVXQ serves as my everything, without them id never imagine life.
Being able to witness JYJ, and Homin live. Im contented, but im still praying every single day for them to reunite. Bigbang is having their 'alive' worldwide concert this year, and im eighty percent positive they will step in Singapore. Theyve no reason not to.
What has the ten guys done to me? Its beyond words explanation.
I am grateful for everything. Yes everything.
As loathsome as people may grunt saying id regret what im forking for them, time wasted on them, till now, at least im certain that i am not regretful at all, never.
Whats bugging me now would probably the fall for jpop.
From animes spazzsm to Yamada, Hey Say Jump, Kamenashi, Yamashita, etc etc japanese actors, its driving me insane. Rapid spammings on jdramas and animes, spazzing over hey say jump and yamapi, its driving me further from kpop, im uncertain if this is right...
But whatever, I am as lonely and empty as always, i would just allow myself to indulge lest id have any regrets in future.
Most importantly, my eighteenth birthday has been awesome.
Nothing about the age and legal change, but the efforts and love my friends brought me.
Sincerely appreciated.
As much as i distrust friendship, whoever has been with me this year, i want them with me for the following years.
Not to mention how grateful i am to my family. I really do.
The presents, the cake. Its too much what i can express myself...
So long~!
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